ch2 / flustered, mortified, rattled

p6

I can't tell if I'm shaking because I'm flustered or because I've been too busy to eat since I walked in the door. 

flustered a. 당황한, 긴장한

get (all) flustered (완전히) 당황하다, 긴장해서 허둥지둥대다

 

 

I'll be mortified well into next year

<사람이> 굴욕을 느끼는, <눈빛 등이> 굴욕에 찬

 

 

I'm splotchy, I have carrots smeared across my shirt, my nail polish has been Chipped since, like, January.

 

splotch (진흙, 페인트 등의) 얼룩, 자국

splotchy a. 얼룩덜룩한

 

not one of those fantasies starred me bumping into him in the middle of a hectic morning, 

 

star (영화, 연극에) 주연으로 출연하다

 

p7

I'm so rattled by what our chance encounter might mean, it took me twice as long to organize everything for the delivery driver this morning. 

 

ratted (명사앞에서 쓰이지 않음) 동요한, 초조한, 불안한

get rattled 동요하다, 초조해하다, 불안해하다

 

 

I lunge for my phone as if the text is about to self-destruct and I only have three seconds to read it. 

self-destruct 스스로 파괴되다, 자폭하다

 

p8 

She always seems so put-together, even when I can tell she's in a bad mood. 

 

When someone says "you're a well put together person," they typically mean that you appear organized, composed, and mentally or emotionally stable. It suggests that you have a good sense of self, manage your responsibilities effectively, and carry yourself with confidence. This phrase can also imply that you have a polished appearance and a thoughtful demeanor, indicating that you take care of yourself in various aspects of life. Overall, it’s a compliment reflecting a positive impression of your character and presentation.

https://www.quora.com/What-does-it-mean-when-someone-saysyoure-a-well-put-together-person

What does it mean when someone says"you're a well put together person"?

 

p11

But as reaffirming as it was to see him and to know where we both stand at this point in our lives, it ended a bit awkwardly. 

 

reaffirm <공약, 원칙 등>을 재확인하다, 다시 확언하다

 

p16

Ryle is the one constant that I'll always have to appease if I wnat the most peaceful experience for my daughter.

 

appease (원하는 것을 들어주어) 을 진정시키다, 달래다 <배고픔, 호기심을> 달래다, 채우다

 

 

 

Do I sacrifice what I know will make me happy for the sake of avoiding the inevitable disruption Atlas's presence would cause? 

 

disruption n. 지장, 방해

disrupt v. ~에 지장을 주다, 을 방해다